I sure do have the talents to stick around here. That was never in doubt. It is the motivation i lack. The motivation to spend long nights reading text books, the motivation to read up extra journals and papers about the topic, the motivation to actually start working on any assignment or project more than a night before the deadline or even the motivation to do just a little bit more than the bare minimum required of me. Its always left me wondering about whether i am actually not interested in becoming an electrical engineer or is it just that i am plain ol' lazy.
As usual i'm stumped for an answer. One explanation i had reached a while ago was that every job ends up getting boring so there was really no use in trying to answer this question. But then whenever i see someone who is so involved in the work that it is obvious they love what they do, it makes me wonder if i too have a true calling. It is admittedly too late to do anything about it even if i do zero in on it eventually but it sure would feel good to know something about myself.
I have had this feeling for a while that maybe i'd do good in psychiatry. I am not sure if it is true. But trying to understand perspectives, human psychology, reasons why people behave like they do and the ability to predict a persons behavior sure sound exactly like something i'd love to learn about. Maybe someday when i am in the mood i'd buy a few books and read up a little on it. And if i liked it, maybe i'd go back to school. Who knows.. Life sure is full of interesting choices.
